We’ve made it through half the year, and I don’t know about you, but I’m feeling all over the place. Emotions are on constant rollercoaster mode as the world continues to battle multiple large issues all at once.
With all the battles, it’s hard to keep track of the days let alone where we are at emotionally. I’d like to take this time to encourage you to check in with your feelings. Take time to sit with them and express them in your own unique and healthy way. We are fighting to protect others, we are fighting for survival, and in order to keep that up we must feed our own emotional needs as well.
That’s why this month, I wanted specifically an Open Mic. I wanted each artist to be able to share what is on their hearts and minds as we continue to face these challenges and chip forward one step at a time.
Take some time to enjoy each artist. I hope they uplift you, and you them with your likes and comments. Your simple actions can be wondrous gifts to those around you when done with love on your heart.
Let’s lift each other up, fight when we can fight, rest when we need rest, and we will get to the other side of this together.
This new song has been simultaneously the easiest and yet most difficult to create. The meaning of the song is so deeply personal to me that It was a struggle to get it just right.
Most of the abuse that I have encountered in my life was not obvious abuse. A good portion of it was subtle and quiet. So subtle at times that it was masked as helpfulness or love. It didn’t make me hate my abusers, but rather, they made me hate myself. Their soft, seemingly insignificant words lingered in my head and created a self-deprecating dialog. Cruel words that I would never tell another person in a million years became my personal mantra. I believed any insult given to me as valid. Feeling “less than” was not just a moment, but a state of being. Finding my flaws in any given situation was my superpower, and the only thing I could feel confident about.
When I went on my journey to break free of abuse, it took me a long time to realize that it was so much more than physically separating myself from abusers, because I was now a victim of my own mind. They didn’t need to be around anymore because their damaging words floated in my head with each and every new moment I encountered. I was just as tormented as I was before because I had become the words that I hated so much. I loathed the self-loathing, but it was now fully embedded in my programing that there was no me without it. So, the very nature of pursuing freedom was a painful deconstruction, because these pillars of myself, even if I could destroy them, had to be replaced. This posed a new problem of finding what to replace it with. It was an internal war, and at times, an external one with the people who either didn’t understand or continued to abuse me.
Over time, as I grew in emotional strength, I became something different. I recreated myself, rather than being the person that was imposed upon me. The effects of abuse that had my own mind attacking itself no longer imprisoned me. It’s not that the words went away completely, but rather, when they do come up, I now know how to fight them. Learning those tools and skills have been essential to finding real peace in my heart.
This song is about this battle that’s been inside me for so long. It was the war against myself long after the war with others was over. It has taken a long time and a lot of hard work to even be able to have the courage to write it and share it.
Thank you for listening, and I want to encourage you if you struggle with self-deprecation as result of abuse, to challenge it and fight it. Don’t accept it as life, but rather make your own journey of finding your own strength.
How are you? How are you feeling? The world has a heaviness to it right now, and I want to give artists a chance to share what is on their hearts and minds. For Online Open Mic you can submit any type of art on any topic. Whether it is artwork about Black Lives Matter, the pandemic & lockdown, or something completely different, it is all welcome. Selected submissions will be displayed here on www.pondersavant.com during the month of July.
Come share your thoughts and your feelings. They are welcome here.
This new series is restarting today! Due to the pause last week, we now get the pleasure of two One-Liners a day for the first week!
Times are rough, and we are all struggling together. This series is about giving you all bite-size poetry to chew on that is not overwhelming while we face these great challenges in our lives. I hope it can inspire and bring cheer to your day!
All types of art. Free submission. Deadline April 30th, 2020.
The world has been heavy, but we are fighters and survivors. The lockdowns and stay-at-home orders during this pandemic has been difficult, but I know lots of people have been passionately making the best of it to fuel their work.
What have you been working on during this time? What art have you been creating? I would love to share it. Because, while the world seems darker these days, we are still here, we are still fighting, and we are still shining.
1. Send your art of any kind (poems, music, drawings, paintings, videos, or any medium of creativity!). Anything you have been working on during the COVID-19 lockdown/stay-at-home orders or something inspirational to keep people going during this time.
(Disclaimer: Submissions that include hate, discrimination, or inappropriate content will not be accepted).
2. Include a picture of yourself or any photo that you feel represents yourself as an artist.
3. Include any bios, links to your work, or social media sites that you would like to be shared.
With strength and precision, roll out the dough into an even layer.
Now sprinkle with hope.
Spice it up with some courage.
Then, roll the dough lengthwise to form a happy log.
Slice the log into even rolls.
Arrange the rolls in your pan to your liking.
And now for the secret ingredient,
That is often overlooked.
You could bake without it,
But it wouldn’t have the pizzazz that most palates are looking for.
So, before you finish your creation,
Don’t forget to add (Not too much!)
Just a dash
⁃ Mia Savant
Welcome to April Ponderbots!
The world is pretty crazy right now, and we’ve got to keep our focus in how to get through these times.
Last month we had the inspired artwork from the Online Open Mic and I want to thank each and every artist that participated. So much love and skill went into each piece, and you gave us a treasure by sharing it with us.
This month I want to be especially mindful about keeping our spirits up! While we are getting through this hurdle together as the human race, we’ve got to keep each other smiling in whatever ways we can. Join me in laughter and giggles as we view the upcoming artwork in this new series, A Dash of Whimsy!
Online, the applause is your likes, comments and shares. So, when an artists work makes you smile, be sure to “clap” in support of them!
The day has come, my dear Ponderbots! Spring is in the air bringing new life, new hopes, and this month, a new Online Open Mic! I am so pleased for you to join in on viewing all of the wonderfully talented artists and their creations that they have worked so hard on.
Each day you will see various types of art, styles, and subjects! So, don’t forget to stop by and check each one out because it will be something new and exciting each day. And don’t forget to show some love to the artists by liking and commenting on how you felt about their work!
Let’s get this thing rolling because, Ladies and Gentleman,
I want to end this love season with a song I wrote a while back about self empowerment and self love.
It’s taken me a long time to learn how to truly take care of myself emotionally and I’m still learning each day. Before, I struggled with being codependent, desperately trying to make others happy because I thought that they mattered more than myself. In return I found so many times that my efforts were either unappreciated, or I became a doormat to other people’s wishes and expectations.
This used to make me feel out of control, leaving me feeling like a victim to my suffering. Most people didn’t even know about it because I was too afraid to hurt someone’s feelings by telling them I wasn’t okay.
It has helped me so much to recognize that it’s okay to take care of myself and my emotional needs. In doing so I am able to not be a victim, but properly disperse where I have control and where I don’t, while being at peace with both. Ironically, taking care of myself first made me realize I was much better at giving to others after doing so. It allowed me to authentically say yes to others rather than giving that fake smile of acceptance.
I wrote this song to reflect my change in mindset and give myself that self care.
This series had so many powerful perspectives to ponder and I hope you are feeling as charged up as I am! Thank you to all of the artists who participated!
Welcome to February, dear Ponderbots! We have entered the season of love.
This new series is focusing on loving and caring for one’s self. Love is a magical thing, and loving others is some of the greatest magic of all. However, if we don’t put the oxygen mask on first how can we truly give to others? We must first fill ourselves to be able to have something to give to someone else, and I think it’s important to remind ourselves of this.
Love for ourselves can have numerous possibilities. It can be the times we allow ourselves to rest. Or standing up for ourselves to make sure we are being treated with respect. Or it can even be validating our own emotions, allowing it to be felt. There is so much love and self care we can give to ourselves and feel fulfilled whether we are in a relationship or not. Either way, love starts with you.
These upcoming artists have created tender and starry-eyed work for you to view. So, stay tuned for inspiration!