Artist:
Jack Droppers and the Best Intentions
About the Piece:
Jack Droppers was diagnosed with depression a few years ago and said this song is an attempt to come to grips with the fact that depression won’t necessarily make him a better writer but it also isn’t completely bad either.
All the Same To Me Now
Lyrics:
All the Same To Me Now
I thought I’d enjoy the sadness
But It just disappointed me
Like a “get well soon” dollar store balloon
That went and flew into the sea
depression taught me a lesson
Like the ocean learns the moon
I try and behave as I wrestle with the waves
But the tide pulls be back toward you
Whether I’m staring at the heavens
Or I’m staring at the ground
Whenever I’m wonderin’
What this life is all about
Cause all of my beliefs still feel like doubts
But it’s all the same to me now
Sittin’ in the backseat
of a three row minivan
You were thumbing through your journals
of all your adolescent plans
you were gonna move to Nashville
with all the boys in the band
you were gonna write that single
get you up on the grandstand
now you’re living with the things
that you could’ve lived without
if only you had spent your 20’s
acting a little more devout
cause time only moves as fast as God allows
but it’s all the same to me now
like you’re trying to separate the shade from the clouds
or a child who lost her mother in a crowd
to those secret things we’ll never say out loud
to these prayers that still carry me around
they’re all the same to me now