Artist:

Jack Droppers and the Best Intentions

About the Piece:

Jack Droppers was diagnosed with depression a few years ago and said this song is an attempt to come to grips with the fact that depression won’t necessarily make him a better writer but it also isn’t completely bad either.

All the Same To Me Now

Lyrics:

All the Same To Me Now

I thought I’d enjoy the sadness

But It just disappointed me

Like a “get well soon” dollar store balloon

That went and flew into the sea

depression taught me a lesson

Like the ocean learns the moon

I try and behave as I wrestle with the waves

But the tide pulls be back toward you

Whether I’m staring at the heavens

Or I’m staring at the ground

Whenever I’m wonderin’

What this life is all about

Cause all of my beliefs still feel like doubts

But it’s all the same to me now

Sittin’ in the backseat

of a three row minivan

You were thumbing through your journals

of all your adolescent plans

you were gonna move to Nashville

with all the boys in the band

you were gonna write that single

get you up on the grandstand

now you’re living with the things

that you could’ve lived without

if only you had spent your 20’s

acting a little more devout

cause time only moves as fast as God allows

but it’s all the same to me now

like you’re trying to separate the shade from the clouds

or a child who lost her mother in a crowd

to those secret things we’ll never say out loud

to these prayers that still carry me around

they’re all the same to me now

Artist:

Kaci Skiles Laws is a writer and artist living in Dallas—Fort Worth. Her work has been featured in The Letters Page, at Bewildering Stories, on Poetry Circle, and is upcoming in 50 Haikus, The American Journal of Poetry, The Bollman Bridge Review, and Sub Rosa Zine. She recently won an award for her poem, This is How it Ends, by NCTC’s English Department and is currently working on a children’s book called The Boogerman.

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