Kaci Skiles Laws is a writer and artist living in Dallas—Fort Worth. Her work has been featured in The Letters Page, at Bewildering Stories, 50 Haikus, Former People, and is upcoming in The American Journal of Poetry and a few others. She won an award for her poem, This is How it Ends, by NCTC’s English Department and is currently working on a children’s book called The Boogerman. Some of her and her husband’s visual artwork can be viewed on their YouTube channel listed under Kaci and Bryant.
Jack Droppers was diagnosed with depression a few years ago and said this song is an attempt to come to grips with the fact that depression won’t necessarily make him a better writer but it also isn’t completely bad either.
All the Same To Me Now
Lyrics:
All the Same To Me
Now
I thought I’d enjoy the sadness
But It just disappointed me
Like a “get well soon” dollar
store balloon
That went and flew into the sea
depression taught me a lesson
Like the ocean learns the moon
I try and behave as I wrestle
with the waves
But the
tide pulls be back toward you
Whether I’m staring at the heavens
Or I’m staring at the ground
Whenever I’m wonderin’
What this life is all about
Cause all of my beliefs still feel like doubts
But it’s all the same to me now
Sittin’ in the backseat
of a three row minivan
You were thumbing through your journals
of all your adolescent plans
you were gonna move to Nashville
with all the boys in the band
you were gonna write that single
get you up on the grandstand
now you’re living with the things
that you could’ve lived without
if only you had spent your 20’s
acting a little more devout
cause time only moves as fast as God allows
but it’s all the same to me now
like you’re trying to separate the shade from the clouds
Kaci Skiles Laws is a writer and artist living in Dallas—Fort Worth. Her work has been featured in The Letters Page, at Bewildering Stories, on Poetry Circle, and is upcoming in 50 Haikus, The American Journal of Poetry, The Bollman Bridge Review, and Sub Rosa Zine. She recently won an award for her poem, This is How it Ends, by NCTC’s English Department and is currently working on a children’s book called The Boogerman.
Hello Ponderbots! Boy, oh boy, do I have the lineup of
artists for you this month!
This series will be including work
from different parts of the world coming together to present their art. Each
one will be reflecting different aspects and viewpoints of depression.
I know, I know, you are anxious for my upcoming Mini-Series in July. Don’t fret! Today is the last day to send submissions (see: https://pondersavant.com/2019/05/22/calling-for-submissions/) and shortly you will get to see the Lineup of artists.
While you’re waiting, here is a small tidbit of something new I’ve been working on. A tiny love song for your listening pleasure: