To What We Lost – Wrapping up
Wrapping up the series, I wanted to share with you an original song I wrote about the greatest lost I’ve ever experienced. About a decade ago I was pregnant and in a dangerous divorce. In order to protect my child I placed her for adoption in the arms of a loving family. Over the years I have had thousands of emotions coursing through me regarding this, each one powerful, most of them painful, but also filled with love and gratefulness. When I feel these waves, I take it in, embrace its force, and then let it go out with the tide. This song is a moment in that wave, and is dedicated to my daughter who I love with all that I am.
Lyrics:
I’m usually known that I have a thing or three to say
I’ll weave you a picture and then again in crochet
I don’t shy from expression
And I run from oppression
So, I don’t know why I’m acting this way
But you’re the only thing
Where silence is my reverency
Still I wish I wasn’t weak
And I could find something to speak
Chorus:
And I keep thinking
I’m gonna find the words
The ones that you deserve
Perfect as you
But every time I try to find them
I seem to be denied them
Perfectly out of view
I am lost
In a fog
Of missing you
So, silence will have to do
The goal was always for me to stand in front of you
I’d take every hit and carry it all so you wouldn’t have to
But what phrase can I give to comfort your fears
When all of mine now soaked in tears
I’m sorry
Is bleeding
From me
Chorus:
And I keep thinking
I’m gonna find the words
The ones that you deserve
Perfect as you
But every time I try to find them
I seem to be denied them
Perfectly out of view
I am lost
In a fog
Of missing you
So, silence will have to do
Cuz you’re the only thing
Where silence is my reverency
